I know I'm not ready but:

At least that is what I keep telling myself. Today wasn't one of those really great days. I didn't hear my alarm and so I was late getting to the gym. To make matters worse, my membership scanning card was on the key chain of the car that I crashed on Friday and only my son knew where it was and he was asleep. So I had to wait until someone came or left to get in. I got there about 6:12 a.m. and the only person I saw leave was one guy as I pulled in the parking lot. I waited at the door for a while, but no one came or left, and so I decided to bag it because I was freezing. I forgot my jacket because I was in such a hurry. I was pretty bummed knowing I haven't been to a strength training class since before Hawaii. I know it will be to my detriment in the race on Saturday and so I really wanted to do it today. I came home and was going to run, but the hubby had to go into work early and so I needed to do all the carpooling. When I finished with that, my son was still home and I needed his help on the computer and so we did that for quite a while. The stuff I was doing on the computer was making me crazy in itself. It was really chilly this morning and so I wasn't motivated to go out anyway, but I was still planning on it. Then I started to feel really sluggish and I was getting a serious headache and so I kept putting off my run ALL DAY! I really did NOT want to go! What is the matter with me??? That is not like me. My parents called and said they were on their way and I was so grateful for an excuse not to have to go. After they left, the day just got away from me. I was going to go about 3:30, but my headache won out on that one. The worst part of it all is my attitude! I am just feeling pretty discouraged because nothing has fit into place during the last couple of weeks and I feel like I am NOT going to be able to endure that long run. I feel like I am setting myself up for a day of torture and failure. So what did I do? Turned to the CURE ALL for everything.

Yes, I OD'd on:

What else?

I need to shake off this attitude and just try and remember I HAVE actually trained for it even though the past couple weeks do NOT show that at ALL! I was really getting excited on Saturday, but now I just feel depressed about the whole thing. I am seriously doubting my ability to endure the distance. I hope tomorrow will be better. Total Distance: ANOTHER BIG FAT ZERO!!!!