dear big cottonwood marathon, I am SO glad that is over! I got up at 2:50 a.m. and headed down with Jen and Linda to SLC to catch the buses for the race. Robin had picked up our packets and so we met her to get them and then her and Linda headed off for the half and Jen and I for the full. I have been a bundle of nerves ALL week worrying about this marathon. I have never ran the course and I have been putting pressure on myself to get a BQ (Boston Qualifying time) because if I shave off 14 minutes from my PR then I can qualify. Much easier said than done! 14 minutes is a lot of time, but I knew I could do it. Problem is my training hasn't been as good as it was for my last one and I just didn't know how I would do. I was honestly scared to run it because I know how painful and how much inner mental strength it takes to get through a full marathon. Half's are much less draining that way. But a full marathon makes you dig deep and see what you're made of and how much you can endure. They are tough no matter what. And you train for four months all for ONE day. Anything can happen that day and you can have a great day and all the stars are aligned or a crappy one. You just don't know what will happen. And then there's the pressure to qualify. Getting a BQ time is VERY tough but a dream for many runners. I REALLY want to run Boston...it is my goal. I was so hoping today would be the day, but it wasn't meant to be. I ended up SEVEN MEASLY MINUTES shy of a BQ! Seven! Oh well. Guess that means I will have to keep trying. Not looking forward to that though. Marathons really take it out of me and training for that long really takes a lot of time. There were so many reasons I wanted to do it today, but I gave it ALL I had and still came up shy. That's why it's so hard to qualify and why it's such a coveted thing among runners. It's kind of like the Super Bowl for runners. It's my dream though and I really want to run it someday! I'm soooooooo close! Anyway, I signed up for this race (Big Cottonwood) because it touts itself as one of the fastest BQ races around. And that is just what I need - a fast course. That was before they changed the course and made it MUCH tougher! The first 15 are downhill and fast but then it turns and there is an 8 mile out and back that is BRUTAL! SO. MUCH. UPHILL! And so painful to go uphill after going 15 down! I was surprised how tough it was. I have never seen so many marathon racers have to walk in a race like I did in this one... ever. It was that tough. I didn't walk once in my last two marathons, but this one I had no choice. Either that or kill over! I stayed with the 4:00 pacers (I actually really tried to stay ahead of them 30 seconds or so for most of the 15 miles) but on the out and back and uphill I got behind a bit and then more and more. My friend Adrian was the pacer for my BQ time of 4:00, and when I heard that, I was SO happy because he is one of the funnest people I know and so smart about running. I couldn't think of anyone else I'd rather have as a pacer. He kept us upbeat and positive and it was just so fun pacing with him! I met some ladies in my age group who flew in from Oklahoma to run it. They went ahead as soon as the uphill started at mile 16 and I was sad I couldn't push it more. I did great until about mile 17 but at that point I was really hurting and felt sick to my stomach. I kept going though and kept pushing it and gave it all I had. Trying to get down a gel was impossible. I knew if I did, I would hurl! But I also knew if I didn't, I would hit a wall and bonk. So I took some blox that had a small amount of caffeine and hoped for the best. The out and back was tough as far as the course goes, but I really liked being able to see the other runners going out or back and passing them. I got to yell and wave at Marci and Sherri as I was going out and then I saw Jen as I was going back. It was inspiring just watching the runners that were on the tough miles (20 and up) as they passed me. The looks on their faces was inspiring because I could tell how painful it was for them but they kept on going. It was like being a spectator at a marathon while running it. I did like that experience. Miles 20-22 were tough. I heard another ask a couple that were walking and limping if they were having cramping and she told them she had a salt tablet if they needed it. My calves were getting tight and starting to cramp and when they said it wasn't cramping and they didn't need it, I asked her if she had a spare I could have. Thankfully she did. I think it helped me during those last three miles. I kept having the thought go through my head, "Would I rather have a baby or run a marathon?" When I have thoughts like those, it means I am hurting. haha But I was still trying to keep it positive. I was even super excited because I need a 4:00 to BQ but I found out that today and ONLY today if I ran it in that time I would BQ for 2015 and 2016. AND, since I will be 55 in 2016, my BQ time goes to 4:10 and if I finished today with a 4:10 I would BQ for 2016! That made me motivated to do it! 10 extra minutes! But as hard as I tried, and as excited as I was that I knew I could do it, about mile 22, the 4:10 pacers passed me and I sadly kissed my Boston Marathon goodbye. Oh man that was tough mentally. Heartbreaking. But I didn't have enough energy to even think about the loss of that. I had to just keep pushing and moving forward. As I approached mile 23, a man cheering for us said it was all downhill from there. I said, "Really? Is that true?" He told me it was and so that gave me some extra strength just knowing the uphill was done. I finished strong with a time of 4:17. My marathon PR is a 4:14 and so I was very happy with my time, just very disappointed I didn't BQ. I wanted to so bad! Guess this means I am not done running fulls. UGH! I want to be! That is after I run Boston! Anyway, I felt good about my time and knowing that I didn't leave anything on the course was also a good feeling. I did my best. It just wasn't good enough today. I didn't train as hard as I needed to either like I did for the Ogden. So, I wasn't really surprised I guess. Just let down. Oh man did I hurt after that race! I was really sick to my stomach and dizzy and had to sit down a long time and try and get feeling better. I am sure I was dehydrated. I even got a short massage after and that was helpful. I sat down by Adrian and he told me I did great. He even went and got me some chocolate milk. That is the best recovery drink ever! I ate some other things but they made me sick. I waited for Jen to finish and was so happy for her because she got a PR and was so happy. I was so proud of her! She has had a bad year and turned it around today! Jen's friend Rachelle and another girl were so nice and fun to talk to after while recovering a bit. I was really not feeling well. I just wanted to go home and lay down, but we headed to Jimmie Johns and got a great sub. It was a good thing to do because it settled my stomach. I felt a lot better after eating that. Then I got home and had so much to do. I helped McKay get ready for the Homecoming Dance and then tried to pack and clean and get Taylor's letter written and this post done. It's almost 11 pm and I am so stinking tired! I have to get up at 4:45 a.m. and so I need to get this posted and hit the hay! LONG day! I was so stressed and nervous about this race that I breathed a huge sigh of relief now it's over!My supplies all laid out the night before...
Dave was ALSO up at 3:30 to see me off! He is so supportive of all my races. Too late to turn back now! I could NOT decide if I should wear my capri's under my skirt or not since it was going to be only 40 degrees at start. I didn't want my legs to freeze for the first two hours. But I had planned on wearing this new purple lululemon skirt for months! I opted to be warm and wear it underneath. Big mistake. By mile 15 I was really hot! Isn't it cute in the back? I LOVE ruffles! Especially purple ones!
I did it! Yea!
I have such great running friends! The fall colors are in full swing!
Check out this picture ↓
Check out this picture ↓
My friend Jen found a photo of one of them when she was looking through unclaimed photos! They have my shirt and purple skirts! I wish I would have seen them, but they ran the half instead of the full. Still made me smile!!! GO PURPLE!
I wrote another post on this race here.
I wrote another post on this race here.
Until May of this year.
I ran the Ogden Marathon and knocked 23 minutes off of my previous marathon time. I was beyond thrilled! I was surprised even though I did train really hard for that race for almost five months and I followed my training schedule religiously, so I was hoping I would do well, just didn't think I would do that well. My finish time was 4:14 and in order for me to qualify for Boston I needed a 4:00. 14 minutes. Doesn't sound too tough, but trust me, even a single minute is hard to cut off when it comes to a full marathon. BUT . . . it was now in reach! I knew if I worked really hard, I could cut off 14 minutes. So I signed up for the Big Cottonwood Marathon because it is touted as a fast course and many BQ (Boston Qualify) at it. I ran the half last year and while watching the full racers cross the finish line that day and seeing so many reach a BQ, I thought I would possibly attempt it the next year.
Training for it this summer proved to be much harder than I anticipated. Getting up at the crack of insanity to get in a long run before it gets too hot, was tough, as was the discipline required to run my training plan religiously.
|Actually, I was usually out and running on long run days by the time set on this alarm.|
On race day, I did decide to start out with the 4:00 pacers though and keep with them for as long as I could. I actually ran ahead of them most of the downhill because I knew if I got behind them I would get very discouraged. I wanted to be able to stay positive the entire course.
|I tried to stay just a little ahead of the 4:00 pace group.|
|Still feeling strong! (And cold!)|
|With Adrian, the 4:00 pacer. This was when I was starting to pace a bit behind them, but they were still right in front of me. He had to make a pit stop and he is trying to get to the other pacer to grab the pacing stick.|
|Still feeling good? Or just faking it?|
|Some of the uphill during the out and back. Those 8 miles were NOT fun!|
|With Adrian the 4:00 pacer. He is one awesome pacer!|
Now that I have had time to think about it and ponder over it, I am seriously let down that I didn't make it. Mostly for the fact that now it means I have to train again and keep running marathons until I DO qualify. UGH! I am not ready to give up on my goal. The day of the race, I had decided to maybe check into running as a charity runner for Cystic Fibrosis because that would mean a lot to me as well, but deep down I want to run it because I earned it, because I was good enough to run it. But I haven't totally thrown the charity idea out the window. Running for CF would be so inspiring to me!
I am hoping someday I will be able to actually say I qualified. I don't know if it will ever happen, but I am an optimist and so I am going to stay positive. Running is such a fragile thing and you never know what is going to happen with your body and injuries. I just hope this old bod of mine hangs on for a bit longer so I can.
So how does all this relate to Sister Burton's talk and the gospel? Well, since you are still here (amazingly) after this marathon post, I will tell you. Hang in there, you are almost to the finish line!
Sister Burton said because Latter-day Saints come to the temple to receive eternal blessings, it should not surprise them that a higher standard is required to qualify for those blessings. “World-class athletes and university doctoral students spend hours and days and weeks and months and even years of preparation,” she said. “Daily drops of preparation are required of them to come out on top. Likewise, those who wish to qualify for exaltation in the celestial kingdom are expected to live a higher standard of obedience that comes by practicing the virtue of obedience day by day and drop by drop.”
Same thing with qualifying for exaltation. Not everyone who is a member of the church and not even everyone who is a temple recommend holder is going to qualify to get into the Celestial Kingdom (CQ = Celestial Qualify). It requires even a higher standard. Only the best of the best will make it to that level. You could call that making it to the Super Bowl of heaven☺or the Olympics of running. It's going to be tough to get to that level. Really tough. But it is doable.
We are probably going to have days when we will look at others and think that we are not in their league. We are not as spiritual as they are. We aren't as good as they are and we never will be. We weren't born with their gifts. We might even think it will be easy for them to qualify, but so much harder for ourselves. But if we really want to qualify then we are going to have to work extra hard even though things may not have been going so well or going according to our plan, and even then, our course may change along the way and we may think it's unfair that our course is harder than someone else's course. We may even get injured (from sinning) along the way and have to change our plan. And most likely our training will not go perfectly. We may get to the point where we would rather just take the pressure off and give up the hope of a CQ. But, like Sister Burton said, if we practice the virtue of obedience (like daily training) day by day and drop by drop, we will qualify. It won't be easy and we will have times when we just want to let go of the dream, but if we keep following the plan (the commandments) then we can.
The best part of the gospel is that just like my friend Marci who had to run 18 marathons to qualify, we will never be told we can't make it as long as we are willing to keep trying and keep training (practicing obedience). And when we come up short - even when we are so close - there is ALWAYS hope that no matter what we do or don't do, we have a loving and forgiving Heavenly Father who will forgive us and give us as many chances as we need to finally get it right and qualify. He is our personal pacer and He will never give up on us. He will encourage us and be there for us whenever we need his support. He gives us hope when we are discouraged. He knows we can do it. We can always rely on Him for help.
And just imagine what crossing THAT finish line is going to be like? All of our family and friends that have already finished the race will be right there cheering us on! What a feeling that will be knowing that we earned it after a hard fought fight. That alone makes all the training and practicing worth it!
And best of all, a CQ lasts forever... for eternity.
|Something else to keep in mind along the way!|